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This article was published in 2002 in Al Arabiya News Channel.

Throughout the Palestinian-Israeli conflict, around 800,000 Palestinians have been arrested by Israelipalestinian female authorities, more than 10,000 of whom are women. Many of those female detainees were subjected to several forms of abuse, sexual in particular, but very few were willing to talk. On the eve of International Women’s Day, however, some decided to break their silence. S.H., who refused to disclose her full name, was arrested for a few days to put pressure on her husband, also detained at the time, and extract confessions from him. “They striped me and the officer who was interrogating me sat beside me and tried to molest me but I resisted,” she told Al Arabiya.

 Hanaa Shalabi, the 30-year-old prisoner who has been on a hunger strike for 21 days in protest of the humiliation to which she was subjected in detention, said that an officer in civil clothes claimed he was a nurse at the prison and asked her to take off her clothes so he could search her. “When I refused, he called other officers who tied me up and started beating me,” she said in a statement to the Palestinian Prisoner Society. Shalabi’s lawyer Mahmoud Hassan said that one of the female officers wanted her to take off all her clothes in front of the other interrogators for the search.
She kept refusing until the officer had to search her in the bathroom but threatened to retaliate against her,” he said in statement, of which Al Arabiya obtained a copy. Hassan added that his client’s hands and legs were illegally tied during the trial.  Shalabi, who has so far lost 10 kilos, vowed to go on the hunger strike until she is released. She was sentenced to six months in jail and the sentence was reduced to four months, but no clear charges were leveled against her.According to former detainee Iman Nafea, Israeli authorities abuse female prisoners all the time if not physically then at least verbally. “In many cases, they search female prisoners after forcing them to take off their clothes. This is very humiliating even if it is done by a female officer because it shows there are bad intentions.”
Nafea argued that Israeli officers do not need to get prisoners naked to search them properly because they have advanced equipment that can reveal what is under the skin. Nafea added that Israeli officers do not necessarily harass Palestinian detainees through direct physical contact with them, but they use other forms of sexual abuse. “I know of a Palestinian woman who was assaulted with a club and several others who were constantly threatened with rape.” On the occasion of International Women’s Day, which is an official holiday in Palestine, Palestinian Minister of Social Affairs Magda al-Masry stated that women have always been an integral part of the Palestinian struggle for freedom.
This struggle is manifested in the plight of female detainees like Hanaa Shalabi,” she told Al Arabiya.
Masry added that the Palestinian government should take a firm stance on the naked search of Palestinian female detainees. “This violates all human rights laws and the world has to break its silence.” All Palestinian women, stressed Masry, will mark International Women’s Day by declaring solidarity with Shalabi. “We will all support her until Israeli occupation forces release her.” Several Israeli human rights organizations filed 17 complaints on behalf of Palestinian female detainees who accused Israeli officers of sexual harassment. According to the organizations, the Israeli military prosecution is currently looking into the complaints.
 
 * Amjad Samhan is a Palestinian journalist.
 
 
 

I am here with you today to share my big unlimited dream, a dream of the hope of a total nation disperseddreamer around the world.

We Palestinians are different than any other people around the world. We have been struggling for 58 years, clutching hope with all energy we have despite everything, despite the parents we lost, the sons who passed out, the lands taken, the old ladies overloaded by the barriers, we struggled. Despite the wall getting taller, despite the checkpoints for us to get home, despite the humiliation we live, and the disbelieve of the world of what we face. Despite what we are known for of terrorists, despite all the men who bombed their bodies out to get revenge, despite the lack of food, studies, money, despite children murdered, men assassinated by their trees, women thrown out of their homes, youths died by the effect of the dazzling sun as they stood waiting for release.

Despite the chains and the bars of jails we stood on our feet, our situation is old. With burse legs, just like a 58 year old man, our soul is fed by Palestinian youth.

We stood and said No!

We declared that this forever and for always will be our land, our mother, our dignity and our identity. We are not yet satisfied and will never be as long as that man is looking between the bars of the wall and at his piece of land. We will never be satisfied, as long as our children don’t have a place to play in.

No, never we will.

No, never we shall be satisfied as long as part of our family is there and we are here. No, we will never be satisfied as long as our sea is theirs, as long as their footprints are in our sand, as long as they are in our own homes, as long as they are consuming what is ours, and gaining profits while we are here suffering poverty, lack of education and health.

No. Still I can see the tendons of the sun from between the wall bars, I can see a smile on the children’s faces and still I can wake up..

I have a dream.

I have a dream of all Palestinians. I have the dream of Palestine.

I have a dream to be able to go with my friends to the Mediterranean Sea. I have a dream to be able to reach Akka. I have a dream to see the oranges of Jaffa, the beach of Haifa, the mountains of Safad and the grapes of Hebron. I have a dream to taste the fish of Gaza, live the nature of Toolkarm, and visit the mosque of Jerusalem.

I have a dream that all refugees will be able to put their keys in their locks and get back to where they came from. I have a dream to be able to see children playing a game rather than Israelis and Palestinians. I have a dream that all our children can have a better childhood and future than that of ours.

I have a dream to see one marrying another for pure love and not because they both have the same identity cover.

I have a dream to fly around and know exactly the meaning of being free.

I have a dream to go to Nablus to see my mother’s family and watch my newborn cousin grow not by pictures, but by my own eyes!

I have a dream to wake up calm and feel peace in the air.

I have a dream to see a smile on an old man’s face.

I have a dream that smiles will replace frowns. I have dream that tears would dry up and wounds would clot and sorrows will fade. I have a dream that memories be shared and free Palestine declared.

I have a dream to move round my country and see the nature, I was taught in geography books. I have dream to see Marg Ibn Amer green again.

I have a dream to see complete sunrise not blocked by the wall.

I have a dream that all disabled people by Intifada can leave their wheelchairs again.

I have a dream to believe that our martyrs’ blood is not in vain and feel that their souls would rest in peace and not worrying of their families.

I have a dream to see the Palestinian flag rising on my school’s building, to feel that my country does exist.

I have a dream to be able to run in my own country with no fear or peril to be the one to choose where to go, and not the checkpoints.

I have a dream to get my own land in my lifetime.

I have a dream that all people in camps, places sweltering with the sun of injustice, but cold of tragedy would flower again.

I have that all prisoners living under the darkness of torture will be able to see sunlight again and return to their homes, so the yellow faces of their mothers would shine up!

I have a dream that we Palestinians, are allowed to speak for once to the world and to feel that there is someone there caring for us, really wants helping us..

I have dream to see the wall, a gray gloomy monster filled with hatred and injustice, falling and torn apart like a piece of cloth.

I have dream that Eilat will be Um Rashrash, Tel Aviv will be Tal El Rabi and Shkeim will be Nablus again.

My dream is large, larger than the see, beyond what the eyes can see away from mine, myself and me

I have a dream to see on TV: Palestine’s free. Palestine’s free, Palestine’s free. No long lasts a crime, Palestine will someday shine

Palestine will always remain a star

Shining up my track.

Author’s name has been withheld due to the sensitive nature of this article. Edited by: Amber Halford and Christina Saenz

This article was first published in International Solidarity Movement 2006.

My family and I are on our way back to Gaza from the US. We flew in to Cairo last week, and from there embarkedcheckpoints on a five hour taxi ride to the border town of al-Arish, 50 km from the border with Gaza.  

We rest in al-Arish for the night.  

We carried false hopes the night before last, hopes transmitted down the taxi driver’s grapevine, the ones who run the Cairo-Rafah circuit, that the border would open early that morning. So we kept our bags packed, slept early to the crashing of the Mediterranean – the same ones that just a few kilometers down, crashed down on Gaza’s besieged shores.  

But it is 4, then 5, then 6 AM, and the border does not open.  

And my heart begins to twinge, recalling the last time I tried to cross Rafah; recalling how I could not, for 55 days; 55 days during which my son learned to lift himself up into the world, during which he took his first fleeting steps, in a land which was not ours; 55 days of aloneness and displacement.  

The local convenience storeowner tells us he hears the border may open Thursday -“but you know how it is, all rumors.” No one can be certain. Even the Egyptian border officials admit that ultimately, the orders come from the Israeli side. 

It’s as though they take pleasure as we languish in the uncertainty. The perpetual never- knowing. As though they intend for us to sit and think and drive ourselves crazy with thought. I call an Israeli military spokesperson, then the Ministry of Defense, who direct me back to the spokesperson’s office, and they to another two offices; I learn nothing. 

As an Israeli friend put it, “uncertainty is used as part of the almost endless repertoire of occupation.” 

Even the Palestinian soccer team has been unable to leave Gaza because of the Rafah closure, to attend the Asian games. No one is exempt. Peasant or pro-football player, we are equally vulnerable.  

Long days  

It is now our fifth day in al-Arish. Rafah Crossing has been closed more or less for more than six months, opening only occasionally to let through thousands of stranded Palestinians. And then it closes again.  

Every night, it’s the same ritual. We pack all our things, sleep early, and wake up at 5 to call the border.   

We’ve rented a small beachside vacation flat here. They are cheap – cheaper than Cairo, and certainly cheaper than hotels, and are usually rented out to Palestinians like us, waiting for the border to open. Its low season now, and the going rate is a mere USD 12 a night.  

In the summer, when the border was closed, rates jumped to a minimum of USD 35 a night – and that’s if you could find an available flat. We can afford it. But for many Palestinians who come to Egypt for medical treatment, and without large amounts of savings, even this meager rental fee can begin to add up.  

Palestinian slum  

During times of extended closure, like this summer, and last year, al-Arish becomes a Palestinian slum. Thousands of penniless Palestinians, having finished their savings and never anticipating the length of the closure, end up on the streets.  

In response, the Egyptian police no longer allow Palestinians driving up from Cairo past the Egyptian port city of al-Qantara if the border is closed and al-Arish becomes too crowded.  

“They turn it into a ghetto. That and the Israelis didn’t want them blowing up holes in the border again to get through,” explains the taxi driver nonchalantly.  

Young Palestinian men on their way to Gaza have it worse off: They are confined to the Cairo Airport or the border itself, under military escort – and only after surrendering their passports.  

No one cares  

We go “downtown” today – all of one street – to buy some more food. We are buying in small rations, “just in the case the border opens tomorrow.” I feel like we’ve repeated that refrain a hundred times already. I go and check my email. I feel very alone; no one cares, no one knows, no one bothers to know. This is how Palestinian refugees must feel every day of their lives.  

I read the news, skimming every headline and searching for anything about Rafah. Nothing. One piece about the Palestinian soccer team; another about the European monitors renewing their posts for another six months. We do not exist.  

If you are “lucky” enough to be stuck here during times of extended closure, when things get really bad – when enough Palestinians die on the border waiting, or food and money are scarce enough for the Red Cross to get involved, then maybe, maybe you’ll get a mention.  

And people will remember there are human beings waiting to return home or get out and go about their daily lives and things we do in our daily lives – no matter how mundane or critical those things might be. Waiting to be possessed once again.  

But now, after six months, the closure is no longer newsworthy. Such is the state of the media – what is once abhorred becomes the status quo and effectively accepted.  

Sieged  

It used to be that anyone with an Israeli-issued travel permit or visa could cross Rafah into Gaza – but never refugees of course. Since the Disengagement last year, all that has changed.  

With few exceptions (diplomats, UN and Red Cross staff, licensed journalists) no one besides residents of Gaza carrying Israeli-issued IDs can enter Gaza now. No foreigners, no Arabs, no West Bankers, not even spouses of Gaza residents, or Palestinian refugees.  

A few more days pass. They seem like years.  

For Palestinians, borders are a reminder – of our vulnerability and non-belonging, of our displacement and dispossession. It is a reminder – a painful one – of homeland lost. And of what could happen if what remains is lost again. When we are lost again, the way we lose a little bit of ourselves every time we cross and we wait to cross.  

We wait our entire lives, as Palestinians. If not for a border or checkpoint to open, for a permit to be issued, for an incursion to end, for a time when we don’t have to wait anymore.  

So it is here, 50 kilometers from Rafah’s border, that I am reminded once again of displacement. That I have become that “displaced stranger” to quote Palestinian poet Mourid Barghouti. Displacement is meant to be something that happens to someone else, he says. How true. To refugees that the world cares to forget. Who have no right of return. Who return to nowhere and everywhere in their minds a million times. When the border closes, we are one day closer to become that.  

Of course, that refugee is Yassine, my husband, who cannot even get as far as Egypt to feel alone. Who cannot join me and Yousuf as we journey back and forth through Rafah.  

But the Palestinian never forgets his aloneness. He is always, always reminded of it on borders. That, above all, is why I hate Rafah Crossing. That is why I hate borders. They remind me that I, like all Palestinians, belong to everywhere and nowhere at once. They are the Borders of Dispossession  

We’ve packed and unpacked our bags a dozen times. My mother finally gave in and opened hers up in a gesture of frustration – or maybe, pragmatism. It seems like a bad omen, but sometimes things work in reverse here: last time we were stuck waiting for the border to open, when we decided to buy more than a daily portion of food, the border opened.  

Everyone is suddenly a credible source on the closure, and eager ears will listen to whatever information they provide.  

One local jeweler insisted it would open at 4 PM yesterday – a suggestion that the taxi drivers laughed off; they placed their bets on Thursday – but Thursday has come and gone, and the border is still closed.  

Atiya, our taxi driver, says he heard it wouldn’t open until the Muslim pilgrimage (Hajj), a few weeks from now. We’re inclined to believe him – taxi drivers have a vested interest in providing the most reliable information; their livelihood depends on it.  

In the end, “security” is all that matters and all that ever will. As Palestinians, we’ve come to despise that word: Security. It is has become a deity more sacred than life itself. In its name, even murder can become a justifiable act.  

We sleep, and wake up, and wait for the phone to ring for some news. Every time we receive a knock on the door we rush to see if the messenger brings good tidings. Today? Tomorrow? A week from now?  

No, it’s only the local deaf man. He remembers us from last time, offers to take out our trash for some money and food.  

We sit and watch the sunset. What does it know of waiting and anticipation and disappointment and hope – a million times in one day? 

 

* Laila al-Hadad is aPalestinian freelance journalist, author, blogger, and media activist from Gaza City. She is currently based in the United States. El-Haddad is the author of Gaza Mom: Palestine, Politics, Parenting, and Everything in Between (Just World Books, 2011) and co-author of the The Gaza Kitchen (Just World Books, 2012). She is also a contributing author of The Goldstone Report: The Legacy of the Landmark Investigation of the Gaza Conflict and a policy advisor with al-Shabaka, the Palestinian Policy Network. El-Haddad writes principally for the al-Jazeera English website and the Guardian.

This article was first published in Electronic Intifada 2007.

I have just found out that I studied in Jordan. I swear I did not know that. Well, that is not the only recentidentity discovery I’ve made about myself. I have been learning many new things about myself as a Palestinian individual, all by coincidence. For instance, a few minutes ago I learnt that I took my BA degree from Jordan. No, I am not losing my mind. Or maybe I am.

It is funny how when we Palestinians are striving to prove and maintain our Palestinian identity others still perceive us as aliens. It is as if the concept of “Palestine” only exists in our heads. Well, that was actually a comment I heard by a Jewish American comedian several ago. I can never forget that show. It made me feel as an invisible entity although I was still in elementary school. But since then, lots of struggles to try to make our voices heard have materialized. Nevertheless, our attempts to make the world recognize us as Palestinians seem to be all in vain.

Two weeks ago, a colleague from work asked me for some help with a visa application. The place of origin was filled with the word “Jordan,” though he is purely Palestinian, and has never left Palestine. Apparently he noticed my astonished facial expressions, and before I uttered anything, he said, “all the travel agencies consider us Jordanians.” I did not spend much time thinking it through nor arguing it.

However, for the past month or so, I have been filling out some schools’ applications. Most of them are American. It gets easier by time to repeat what you first have trouble in articulating and then jotting down. All follow the same pattern, yet not when it comes to the nationality part. Of course, “Palestine” is never provided as an option. It crushes one’s feelings to find out that you are not considered what you believe you are. It is like hallucinating while the whole world mocks you.

For some schools, I have to select “Israel,” for others “the Palestinian Authority,” or “the Palestinian Territory.” Note that it is singular — territory rather than territories.

Anyhow, we have got used to those variations. And finding that the notion of “Palestinian,” whether authority, territory, or any other affix is provided, lightens us up. It still somehow reveals part of our identity, as long as it is declared. It entails that we are visible, and we Palestinians are accepted and respected as well. It brings back the feeling of being an internationally acknowledged national.

But what really struck me the most is this last joke: we are Jordanians. According to this last application in my hand, Birzeit University (my school) is in Jordan, and my BA degree is awarded, for that matter, from Jordan. For someone who has never been outside the West Bank, it makes me really wonder just how I got my degree from abroad.

The concept of being nameless and without an identity once sounded surreal to me when I was submerged in the world of literature and novels. It is like the classic English literature during Queen Elizabeth’s reign when women were nameless, or the African-American literature where human beings are alienated. I heard that history repeats itself, but didn’t realize that literature could be made literal.

This article was first published in The New York Times 2006.

I awoke to the persistent stammering of my 2-year-old son Yousuf: “I think today the crossing will open, Mama!”checkpoints Yousuf’s prediction came true. After we had waited at the border for over two weeks, Israel finally opened the border for a few hours.

Amid chaotic crowds of thousands of stranded travelers, my son and I managed to squeeze through Gaza’s Rafah Crossing from Egypt to reach our home in the Gaza Strip.

The hardships persist, however, for thousands of Palestinians on both the Egyptian and Gaza sides of the passage who were unable to cross during those fleeting hours. They now must wait until the Israeli government temporarily opens the border again.

The Rafah Crossing, the gateway to the world for 1.4 million Gazans, was shut by Israel in late June after Palestinians captured an Israeli soldier. It has been open only for a few days since.

When Secretary of State Condoleezza Rice visited the region in November, her visit coincided with the one- year anniversary of the Gaza Agreement on Movement and Access that she had brokered. The agreement aimed to facilitate the movement of Palestinian people and goods and to lead to Palestinian control over the Rafah Crossing after one year.

At the time, she proudly promised that it would “give the Palestinian people freedom to move, to trade, to live ordinary lives.”

The year has passed, and all our crossings, our air, our water and our lives remain under Israeli control.

Israel began violating its commitments immediately, well before Hamas’s election victory, refusing to allow supervised bus convoys between Gaza and the West Bank, or to speed the flow of vital goods in and out of Gaza.

Israel had also agreed not to close Rafah and other crossings in response to security incidents unrelated to the crossing itself. For example, according to the agreement, Palestinian rocket fire into Israel does not constitute a valid reason for closing Rafah.

So why close Rafah? Countering Israeli accusations, senior European diplomats told both Israel’s Jerusalem Post and Ynet News that there have been no major Palestinian violations of the agreement, and that weapons are not smuggled through the crossing. The European Union has monitors stationed at the crossing pursuant to the border agreement.

An Israeli military document leaked to the Israeli daily Haaretz in August suggested that the closure was in fact calculated. It’s purpose was to “apply pressure” on Gaza’s residents to return the captured Israeli soldier. This action, says the Israeli human rights group B’Tselem, constitutes collective punishment of Gaza’s civilian population.

But instead of holding Israel accountable, Rice praised Prime Minister Ehud Olmert of Israel for taking steps likely to “advance the peace processes in the region.”

We wait day after day in the Egyptian town of Arish, when suddenly a rumor spreads that the crossing is about to open. We rush there along with thousands of other stranded Palestinians.

We waited for seven hours two days in a row, languishing in limbo, only to learn that the Israelis have closed the crossing again after a single hour. We stand in the sun packed together like cattle, penned in between steel barriers on one end and Egyptian riot police on the other.

“We’ve been waiting for 15 days. Only God knows when it will open — today, tomorrow, the day after?” 58- year-old Abu Yousuf Barghut tells me.

His wife weeps silently by his side. “We went to seek treatment for him. My four children are waiting for me in Gaza. We just want to return home now, that’s all.”

Nearby, a group of people try to comfort a young girl with muscular dystrophy, screaming uncontrollably in her wheelchair.

Providing Palestinians with their most basic rights — the right to move freely in and out of their own land — is critical to furthering peace and ensuring a viable Palestinian state.

Yet the world has remained relatively silent — even complicit — as Gaza has been turned into a prison.

Neither Israel, the U.S. government nor the rest of the world can imprison 1.4 million Palestinians and expect that somehow, some way, their “problem” will disappear.

We certainly aren’t going anywhere.

 

*Laila M. el-Haddad is a Palestinian journalist, mother and blogger who divides her time between Gaza and the United States

This testimony was taken from the journal Education under Occupation published by The Palestinian Grassroots Anti-Apartheid Wall Campaign  2006.

Twelve year-old Hamaam Ismael sits down leaning against a massive tree that died after it was uprootededucation by an Israeli bulldozer to prepare the land for the footprint of the Apartheid Wall. The young boy wonders about his and his family’s future.

He shares these burning questions with some 250 students in his school. Each day they go home worried about the fate of their school, houses, and village – Beit Ur. The village is being isolated from neighbouring villages by the Wall. Hamaam says: “Our daily suffering is great but it becomes worse every winter. We are forced to walk on foot for half an hour to reach school. The new road opened by the village council is sandy but at least allows us to reach our goal: Education”.

The school in Beit Ur is totally surrounded – by the Apartheid Wall on one side and the walled-in settler-only Road No. 443 on the other. Further, the settlement of Beit Horon encroaches on the western part of the school. The “alien” infrastructure of Zionist colonization creates fear, trauma and suffering for the villagers and the students.

The students are regularly chased by settlers or Occupation Forces stationed along the Wall, the apartheid road or the settlement. The path to school has become dangerous and the education system in the village is threatened.

Students from a nearby village called Tira attend the same school. These students suffer also every morning from the same illegal Apartheid Wall.

Occupation Forces have forbidden Tira students from crossing the settler by-pass road. If any of them try, he or she will be arrested. Therefore, the students use a drainage hole below the Wall to reach school. This hole was built to prevent rain water from flooding the area and, in winter, crossing under the Wall becomes a real life threatening operation.

Issa Ali Issa, the administrative manager of the school, said: “First, the Wall was built around our school then the Occupation Forces imposed restrictive rules upon the students. The students are no longer allowed to come to school or go back home, so they are forced to move in big groups with a teacher accompanying them.”

The situation escalates when the Occupation Forces learn that a group of students went home from school without the company of teachers. “At that point, the military comes and starts interrogating the teachers and threatening the administration,” he explains. He adds that “the walkway through the drainage hole that the students use is not even suitable for animals to pass. In winter, the water rises up to 30 cm high. That is very dangerous.”

“The Occupation Forces once came and destroyed the pole where the Palestinian flag is raised. Now it is forbidden to hoist the flag. In addition, they closed all the school gates other than one small opening for the students to enter.”

Every now and then, additional “procedures” are taken against the school. Sometimes the Occupation Forces cut the water supply to the school. Recently, they narrowed the sand road that buses previously used to bring children to school. Now no bus can reach the school.

The school administration has decided to attempt to minimize the threats that the students and the entire educational system are facing in the area. Lessons for basic levels (until grade 6) have been moved to a new building further away from the Wall. High school levels remain in the old building. This solves part of the problem, at least for the younger students, and hopefully will help to secure their education.

However, the villagers are not willing to give in to threats by the Occupation Forces to close the school and take away the land. The area where the school is located has been slated for settlement expansion. Thus, the Occupation has tried its best to persuade the school administration and the villagers to give up the school and the land around it. Once, they even offered to buy the land for a large sum of money and another time they offered to build a new school for the village in an area far away from the old school.

The school was built in the early fifties. It has a longer history than the occupation of the West Bank itself. In 1955, the school even ranked first in an honorary certificate awarded by the Ministry of Education of the Hashemite Kingdom for the care that they took in gardening and beautifying the surroundings of the school. Now the green has become the grey of the Wall. Visitors to the school will only be able to see the cement towering over the school and the barren land from which all trees have been uprooted.

This was first published in Maán News Agency 2007.

Palestinian Circus was started by a man named Shadi Zmorrod and seeks to enlighten people about Palestinian circussuffering, whilst also entertaining the Palestinian people. When I contacted Shadi to learn more about his creation, he insisted that I come and experience life with the circus first-hand. The day I arrived, Shadi had just secured funding from the French Consulate, which had enabled him to hire a room in which the circus’ performers could practice. Previously, the circus had been forced to make-do with limited resources; they practiced in the street, used toilet brushes as juggling batons and relied on the generosity of local restaurants to feed the performers. The funding will also facilitate a tour of Europe for the Palestinian circus students. As Shadi announced the news to his students he was met with cheers and joyous bursts of laughter.

Children will be children

Shadi explained his motives for setting up the Palestinian circus school. He said that his goal was to, “redraw the smiles on the faces of the children.” Children are born every day into an oppressive, conflictual situation and Shadi is here to enable them, despite their surroundings, to just be children. Shadi described how Palestinians had lost their trust; how it had been systematically destroyed by the occupation. He said that the first exercises the circus does with children in the workshops are trust exercises. Circus is based on trust and working together and it is necessary for acrobats to trust one another in order to perform together. He explained that anything built on trust stands in stark contrast to the Israeli occupation. Shadi told us how he intends to put trust back into Palestinians through the circus. The circus has very grand aims; it also seeks to build unity and solidarity in people who, in the face of the current crisis, have become divided. Shadi explained how the circus is not only about learning techniques; it also has a wider pedagogical purpose.

Breaking down boundaries, domestically and abroad

Fresh in my mind when I went to meet Shadi was an incident when a group of activists were held at Allenby Bridge crossing into Israel by Israeli border control who were suspicious of their purpose in traveling to the occupied territory. Bored by 8 hours of waiting, the activists began to entertain themselves by clowning around and juggling. The border control soon realized that this group of people were harmless and allowed their passage. Shadi spoke of how Palestinians are internationally known as terrorists, he seeks to promote circus as an alternative to violence and rectify the reputation of Palestinians. But the circus has come up against barriers domestically. When Shadi first told people about his idea to set up a circus, they said, “So what, you’re going to put a girl wearing a bikini on a trapeze?” The circus is a truly unfamiliar art in Palestine. Despite this, the performances of the Palestinian Circus not only sold out, but far outnumbered the capacity of the venues they had booked, meaning the circus had to move to larger and larger venues to meet overwhelming demand. The circus maintained respect for Arabic traditions and culture; there is nothing sexual in their performances, no performers are scantily clad. When people witnessed the innocent, yet ground-breaking nature of the circus, they came in droves and brought their children.

 A unique goal

Through the Palestinian circus, Shadi is spreading a Brechtian message, his circus, he claims, is the first circus group which has focused on human suffering. The circus props include a makeshift separation wall, and the aim of the circus is to illustrate the suffering of the Palestinian people. Shadi said he wants to take the tour around the world to highlight the problems encountered by Palestinian people, but that it would be even better if people from around the world came to the occupied territory, to see for themselves. However, he does not always intend to put on a circus based on suffering; he would like to do a show unrelated to politics in the coming years and hopes that this will represent the future and a marked change in the Palestinian situation.

The first circus workshop in a Palestinian refugee camp

We were lucky enough to witness the first ever circus workshop in a Palestinian refugee camp, which took place in one of the poorest refugee camps in the occupied territories, Amari refugee camp, in Ramallah, in the occupied Palestinian West Bank. A school in the camp filled with wide-eyed, expectant children; and they would not be disappointed. The show began with a clown, bringing an element of the absurd to the children of the camp. I watched as the amazed children’s mouths gaped open for the entirety of the show. The show began with the clown obstructing the warm-up of the performers and soon turned to a kind of deliberate chaos, with several intended mistakes, which served to demonstrate that anyone can be involved in circus, and slip-ups on the stage really do not matter. Through the circus, a message of inclusivity and solidarity is spread to the Palestinian people. Following the performance, the performers held a workshop, in which they taught the children to do acrobatics and juggle. The children were divided by gender and I watched as the boys formed an orderly queue, each excitedly awaiting their turn to roll down a row of gym mats. The girls stood in a circle learning to juggle with brightly-coloured juggling balls.

The future of the circus

Shadi intends to work with people with special needs in the circus in the future. He has written a circus production entitled, ‘Dreamer Kid,’ in which 50% of performers will be people with disabilities. The story is about a kid who wanted to join a circus group, but he jumped on a trapeze and injured himself on his first day of practicing, then he went to hospital and discovered that the hospital waiting room was full of other injured circus performers. Shadi and his lively group of performers will also be taking the workshops to other refugee camps within the Palestinian occupied West Bank. The Palestinian circus is an all-encompassing, far-reaching group, led by a dynamic, charismatic individual who has charged himself with reaching out to the whole of the Palestinian people as well as illustrating the Palestinian situation to the rest of the world, and he is certainly on the way to achieving his goal!

This article was published in This Week in Palestine 2007.

While Palestinians under occupation in the West Bank and Gaza are scrambling to come up with a new national Palestinianpal_nablus vision, Israeli Arabs are looking for ways to wrest equal citizenship rights for themselves as non-Jews in a state whose reason for existence is to nurture Jewish identity and culture.

According to a recent New York Times news item, “A group of prominent Israeli Arabs [in a report issued in December 2006] has called on Israel to stop defining itself as a Jewish State and become a ‘consensual democracy for both Arabs and Jews,’ prompting consternation and debate across the country.” The report is called “The Future Vision of the Palestinian Arabs in Israel” and the strategies in the report will be implemented by The National Committee of the Local Arab Authorities in Israel.

The term “Israeli Arabs”, as used above by the New York Times, is widespread inside and outside Israel, both in the media and in scholarly articles. The emphasis is on the second word — “Arabs” rather than on the qualifier “Israeli”. The alternative term “Palestinian Israelis” would come as a rude shock to many Israelis, even secular nationalists, conditioned as they are to think of the Palestinians amongst them (20 percent of the population) as a people who had no hand in the agrarian or industrial building of the Zionist State. These people are tolerated at best, so long as they submit themselves to the Zionist ideal. Arab Israelis, for example, must acknowledge “the existence of the state of Israel as the state of the Jewish people” before they can even participate in the political process (1992 Basic Law).

In one way, the subtext for this usage emphasizes the Zionist narrative: Jews (the majority of whom come from outside Israel) have a God given right to live in historic Palestine, but the indigenous Palestinian is a generic Arab with only a tenuous sense of belonging to a specific geographic area. The term “Israeli Arabs” includes Muslim and Christian Arabs, the remnant of indigenous Palestinians that had escaped the ethnic cleansing of 1948, now numbering 1.3 million strong. Significantly, it does not include Jewish Arabs, who are referred to, instead, as “oriental Jews”. Nor does it include the dispossessed Bedouins (about 100,000), who are denied legal recognition and herded in the arid northeastern part of the Negev (the western and fertile part having been reserved for Jewish settlers).

But the term also accurately reflects the sense of schizophrenia as well as exclusion that Palestinians with Israeli IDs feel. As people residing in a State formed against their will, they are not Israelis, but “Palestinian Arabs in Israel, the indigenous peoples, the residents of the State of Israel, and an integral part of the Palestinian People and the Arab and Muslim and human Nation.” In their own words, they are simply “in Israel” and must now resolve their identity and take responsibility for themselves: “who are we and what do we want for our society?”

The rising national consciousness among Palestinians in Israel is both courageous and thorny. Such consciousness aspires to counteract intangibles such as “intellectual and emotional transfer” and distancing from their Arab culture, as well as tangibles such as land, planning, and housing policies and economic strategies.

The predictable Israeli assault on this new consciousness will be ferocious, especially from the Jewish religious nationalist camp, but no less from the Israeli legal apparatus, which has already legitimatized the denial of equal citizenship rights for non-Jewish citizens. Israeli “consternation” will come from every corner, because Zionism, whether in its secular or religious variant, is basically about a nation of Jews (even though the majority is made up of foreigners to Israel) and for Jews. The various segments of Israeli society may differ regarding ways of achieving “security” and “peace”, but there has been no significant practical difference, as far as Palestinians in Israel are concerned, between left and right Israeli governments. The emphasis of both has been on the Jewish nature of the State and so in compromising the rights of Israeli Arabs.

Israeli Arabs have plenty of reasons to deny Israel moral legitimacy and to fight for their rights: “we have been suffering from extreme structural discrimination policies, national oppression, military rule that lasted till 1966, land confiscation policy, unequal budget and resources allocation, rights discrimination and threats of transfer. The State has also abused and killed its own Arab citizens, as in the Kufr Qassem massacre, the land day in 1976 and Al-Aqsa Intifada back in 2000.”

The new Israeli Arab strategies strike a reasonable balance between preservation of Arab identity and values (through institutional self rule in education, culture and religion) and achieving full citizenship and equality with the Jewish majority. Israeli Arabs are proposing a “consensual democracy” for Israel similar to the Belgian model. (Belgium is made up of communities of Dutch, French and German speakers, with each group being able to elect its own parliament that governs such things as culture, education and language).

Israeli consternation notwithstanding, the vision that Israeli Arabs are putting forward is consonant with the vision of the founder of Zionism, Theodor Hertzl, as described by the Israeli writer A.B. Yehoshua. Hertzl envisioned an Israel where “The rabbis didn’t get involved in politics, the Arabs had full rights, the cities all had rapid transit, the workers had social benefits undreamed of in Europe, the choice of theater and opera rivaled … Vienna. Its people did not die violent deaths and the whole world exalted in its contribution to humankind.” It is a vision, unfortunately, that is good only for outside consumption, not for Israeli governments that are driven by a mentality of greed, fear, and paranoia untempered by guilt.

The journey of Israeli Arabs towards freedom will be long and arduous, not least because the Israelis have perfected the art of using bureaucratic procedures to block the implementation of legal advances when these do take place. But articulating their vision is a major step forward and an inspiration to Palestinians everywhere. Equality for Palestinians in Israel will never happen unless they themselves make it happen.

* Rima Merriman is a Palestinian-American living in Ramallah in the occupied West Bank.

This article was published in 2007.

“This morning we saw pictures of the Warsaw ghetto at Yad Vashem and this eveninglive under occupation we are going to the Ramallah ghetto.” – German Bishop Gregor Maria Franz Hanke during a visit to Ramallah in March 2007

Last week, Israel marked the “Holocaust Day” in West Jerusalem amid the usual fanfare of sanctimonious rituals, never-again speeches and glorification of Zionism.

The solemn but also highly propagandistic occasion is manipulated to the fullest by Zionist leaders in order to justify the crime against humanity, otherwise known as “the state of Israel.” -This year, too, Zionist leaders preyed on the memories of holocaust victims by seeking to blackmail the collective conscience of the world into recognizing the “uniqueness of Jewish pain” ” as if non-Jews were children of a lesser God and their pain was unimportant.

Thus we had the political and ideological gurus of Zionism, from the morbidly sanctimonious Elie Wiesel to the pathologically duplicitous Ehud Olmert berate the world for the “reincarnation of anti-Semitism,” a deliberately twisted reference to legitimate criticisms of nefarious treatment of Palestinians, including the adoption of such policies as apartheid, ethnic cleansing and the use of brutal tactics for the purpose of forcing the victims of Zionism to leave their ancestral homeland.

Nobody does or should question the enormity of the holocaust. Doing so, besides being morally unconscionable, serves the interests of Zionism, which has morphed the Holocaust Industry into a virtual religion that encompasses even Judaism itself.

However, manipulating the holocaust to justify the treatment Israel has been meting out to millions of helpless Palestinians is no less obscene and no less outrageous than the utilization by the Third Reich of the outcome of the First World War to wage war on Europe and cause the death of tens of millions of people.

All humanity had suffered through history, recent, past and distant. Nobody, not even Jews, could claim that the suffering of one group is more special and more unique than the suffering of others.

Russia, for example, lost tens of millions to the Nazis in the course of the Second World War. The same thing applies to other European peoples, who too, suffered immensely. The Gypsies were also incinerated and gassed in great numbers in Hitler’s liquidation chambers, but we see no holocaust memorials perpetuating the memory of these hapless and unwept victims as if they were lesser and insignificant human beings.

Of course, nobody objects to Jews commemorating the holocaust and reminding humanity of its evils. I, too, would join conscientious Jews in remembering the victims of Nazism. However, remembering, when done in the wrong way, can be worse than forgetting.

The world, including Jews, doesn’t have to choose between “remembering” or “forgetting” the holocaust or any other enormous crime against humanity. Instead, the choice should be between learning the “right” or “wrong” lessons.

Today, in the name of the holocaust, Israel wants the world to give her a carte blanch to commit another holocaust against the helpless and virtually completely unprotected Palestinians.

In the name of the holocaust and the “never-again mantra,” Israel wants the world to allow it to commit every conceivable crime and every abominable violation of human rights in the West Bank, Gaza Strip and East Jerusalem, from murdering school children on their way to school “for security reasons” to shooting pregnant women on their way to hospital (also for security reasons) to dumping tens of thousands of innocent Palestinians into modern-day concentration camps deep in the Negev desert.

Indeed, in the name of the holocaust, Israel has been hounding, brutalizing and tormenting four million impoverished Palestinians, barring them from accessing food and work, and utterly ravaging their lives and livelihood as well destroying their streets, colleges, bridges, and power stations. And, as if these obscenities were not enough, the Israeli state has augmented its oppression with an Satanic wall that is effectively reducing the bulk of Palestinian population centers into updated versions of the Ghetto Warsaw.

In short, the holocaust and the memory of its victims, have been used and are being used outrageously and relentlessly by Israel in order to justify and legitimize crimes against humanity that, while not as enormous as the holocaust in their magnitude, have non the less many similarities with it in terms of their brutality, insidiousness and criminality.

The holocaust, we all know, didn’t start with Auschwitz or Bergen Belsen. It started with a book, some sporadic acts of harassment, a Kristalnacht, and some discriminatory laws against Jews, things very much like what Israel has been doing to the Palestinians

Today Israel is on its way to being a fully-fledged apartheid state. It systematically discriminates against its non-Jewish citizens in ways reminiscent of the overall German discourse against Jews in the mid 1930s.

One ominous portent is the fact that a majority of Israeli Jewish citizens, who are bombarded 24 hours per day by virulent anti-Arab propaganda, readily support the deportation of non-Jewish citizens who make up nearly a quarter of Israel’s population. Needless to say, this state of affair is very similar to the state of affair that prevailed in Germany prior to the outbreak of the Second World War.

Unfortunately, the holocaust, which was perpetrated by Europeans, has caused European states to go morally blind, a blindness that, even today, is preventing most Europeans from seeing the outrageous crimes committed by their former victims against the Palestinians, Germany’s and Europe’s victims’ victims.

Europe has been either completely silent, or blithe, or actively and enthusiastically supportive of crimes against humanity Israel has been perpetrating against the Palestinian and Lebanese peoples.

Last year, Israel dropped as many as 3.000.000 cluster bomb-lets throughout Lebanon as, we were told, a “ defensive action” against Hizbullah.

The three million bombs, for those who still don’t know, are sufficient to kill three million children. In other words, they could cause a holocaust, or at least half a holocaust by Jewish calculations.

Unfortunately, this outrage drew only sporadic, shy or half-hearted criticism from European leaders who never stop lecturing the Third world, especially the Muslim world, about human rights and terror.

This is no less than a moral whoredom on the part of Europe. Allowing Israel to turn the holocaust into a propaganda asset, as Israeli journalist Amira Hass wrote recently, enables the Israeli state to further oppress the Palestinians and legitimize the oppression.

“Turning the holocaust into an asset,” wrote Hass, “ allows Israel to present all the methods of the Palestinian struggle (even the unarmed ones) as another link in the anti-Semitic chain whose culmination is Auschwitz. Israel provides itself with the license to come up with more kinds of fences, walls and military guard towers around Palestinian enclaves.”

Indeed, Europe’s, especially Germany’s, obsequious, even acquiescent, reactions to Israel’s unmitigated crimes against the Palestinian and Lebanese peoples shows that Europe has not learned the right lesson from the holocaust.

It shows that Europe is atoning for one holocaust by adopting policies that effectively encourage and facilitate the perpetration of another holocaust.

If this is not moral whoredom, then what is it?

*Khalid Amayreh  is a Palestinian journalist based in Dura, in the Hebron district. He did his university degrees in the United States: BA in Journalism at University of Oklahoma, 1982; MA in Journalism, University of Southern Illinois, 1983. For a long time, his life was not made any easier by the fact that he was largely confined by the Israeli military authorities to his home village of Dura near Al Khalil.

It was published first in Gaza Mom.com 2007.

We’re used to things going from bad to worse very quickly here. But we never expected the situation to get as badlayla as it has over the past few days.

After a terrifying 24 hours, we awoke this morning to sporadic gunfire, and ghostly streets.

It was a welcome change. Sleep-deprived and anxious, my colleague Saeed, on his first visit to Gaza, and myself headed to Rafah in the southern part of the Strip to continue shooting a series of documentaries we are working on.

Though the gunfire had subsided, the gunmen were still patrolling the streets, each this time casually manning their own turf, masked and fully armed.

Impromptu checkpoints were still set up along the main Gaza-Rafah road, and we were stopped for ID and affiliation checks.

As we approached Rafah, we received word that clashes had broken out there, too, following the funeral of four Hamas men killed in an Israeli air strike the night before.

We decided to avoid the town centre, and headed instead to film near the border area along Rafah’s edge. Young children blissfully flew handmade kites above the iron wall separating them from the Egyptian Rafah. Their atbaq flirted in the infinite sky above with kites flying their way from the Egyptian side. “We play a game with the Egyptian kids” they explained of their unseen counterparts. “We meet here, through our kites, and see who can catch the other’s kites quicker by entangling. So far we’re winning — we’ve got 14 Egyptian kites,” he announced proudly.

The children are small enough that they can wiggle their way through the cracks of the large iron gates along the wall, where once Merkava tanks made their unwelcome entrance to battered camps here. And so they can call out to their Egyptian friends, and learn their names and new kite flying techniques.

Even then, we could hear the fearsome roar of Israeli fighter jets overhead, interspersed with the banter of machine guns from feuding factions.

I then received a call from my father back in Gaza City — a tremendous explosion, the result of F-16 jet bombing a nearby Hamas compound, had just sent intense shockwaves through our house. It was so powerful that it blasted off the windows from my cousin’s home in the neighbourhood behind us. This attack was followed by another then another, and then another.

Hamas’s Qassam Brigades have sent a barrage of rockets into Israel over the past two days. It has been in an attempt to redirect the battle towards the occupation, they say.

There have been six Israeli aerial strikes since this morning. The latest one happened just as we departed Rafah back to Gaza City. The victims this time were two young brothers, standing near a municipality garbage truck that was obliterated.

Even as I record this from back at home, we were shaken by another large explosion, Israelis tanks are amassing at Gaza’s northern border, and unmanned Israeli drones are whirring menacingly, incessantly, overhead in great numbers patrolling the ghostly skies that only the kites can reach, preparing, perhaps, for yet another strike against an already bleeding, burning, and battered Gaza.

* Laila El-Haddad   is a Palestinian freelance journalist, author, blogger, and media activist from Gaza City. She is currently based in the United States. El-Haddad is the author of Gaza Mom: Palestine, Politics, Parenting, and Everything in Between (Just World Books, 2011) and co-author of the The Gaza Kitchen (Just World Books, 2012). She is also a contributing author of The Goldstone Report: The Legacy of the Landmark Investigation of the Gaza Conflict and a policy advisor with al-Shabaka, the Palestinian Policy Network. El-Haddad writes principally for the al-Jazeera English website and the Guardian. Gaza Mom.com is Laila´s blog.

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